Crap and Scraps

and she's awake
7:37pmMargot
m at eastwood na
hehehe
7:38pmCedrix
and your spending 500 peso for food?OMG!
7:39pmMargot
2 naman kami
why not hehehe
7:51pmCedrix
I had a call
lasted for 12 minutes
7:51pmMargot
hahaha
7:51pmCedrix
2 kayo?who?sana treat mo din ako
7:52pmMargot
nyay
7:52pmCedrix
:))
7:53pmMargot
hahaha
7:54pmCedrix
so how was it?
7:54pmMargot
nakakabusog
hehehe
bakit naman
7:55pmCedrix
lolz, nanginggit pa X+X
7:55pmMargot
i find it odd na maraming nashoshock sa aking dining preference
7:55pmCedrix
aw wrong question pala
what's your dining preference anyweiz?
7:56pmMargot
ok naman ako sa kahit ano.
it just so happens lang na pag ganitong oras eh
eto na ang best meal
7:56pmCedrix
ahh
7:56pmMargot
kung hindi fastfood
7:56pmCedrix
I fing it hard, whooping 500...sabagay 2 persons naman
7:57pmMargot
yep
8:00pmCedrix
anu ba anaman kasing dish yan?
8:00pmMargot
greek
cyma
8:00pmCedrix
next time libre mo ako ha. kahit eastwood pa yan magtataxi ako papunta jan
:))
8:00pmMargot
aw hehehe
8:01pmCedrix
maybe after a year or two
8:01pmMargot
hahaha
8:01pmCedrix
but christmas season seems to be a good idea
:D
8:01pmMargot
nyak
hahaha
8:02pmCedrix
IS it fine if idisown ko yung bata?
8:02pmMargot
until dna can prove it's not yours
pwede
or can prove pala
hindi sa masama ako ok
pero she's hitting on two men
8:03pmCedrix
nope
we know both that its mine
wala akong doubt dun
but the way she wants me to do
too much conditions
8:03pmMargot
sure sure
8:03pmCedrix
for me to have them...
parang hanggat wala kang bahay, di tau pede magsama
amp
8:04pmMargot
bottom line is
she doesn't love you that much
to be with you
8:04pmCedrix
yep
that's what I thought
8:04pmMargot
so it's all up to you
8:04pmCedrix
so last question I gave her is "take me or leave me
8:05pmMargot
that won't solve anything
u can always offer child support
if that is the case
problema sau
you want everything
pati kaligayahan niya
8:06pmCedrix
maybe yeah
that's my problem
so kung hindi ako ang kaligayahan nya
we have to separate ways..
8:07pmMargot
matagal mo nang alam yan
i don't want to go over this again with you
hehehe
alam mo na ang dapat mong gawin
at best is to work around visitation rights
8:08pmCedrix
nope, Im not gonna waste my time dealing with a lawyer
if she wants the child without me
she can have the child
I had enough
Up til wednesday morning
8:09pmMargot
it doesn't have to be with a lawyer
kung masesettle nyo ang issue
kaya nga siguro d ya sinabing sau un
it's because she doesn't want to marry u
8:09pmCedrix
inamin nya na
she doesn't want to marry, that's fine with me
but the deal is there are a lot of obstacles that should not be there..
she set those up na alam nyang mahihirapan lang din ako
its like shes forcing me to give up.
8:10pmMargot
obvious naman
nahihirapan ka lang tanggapin ang katotohanan

Cedrix
inamin nya na
she doesn't want to marry, that's fine with me
but the deal is there are a lot of obstacles that should not be there..
she set those up na alam nyang mahihirapan lang din ako
its like shes forcing me to give up.
8:10pmMargot
obvious naman
nahihirapan ka lang tanggapin ang katotohanan
8:27pmCedrix
ok
8:28pmMargot
ala ka na rin magagawa db...stop pursuing her. ayaw niya.
8:29pmCedrix
so that's it
ayaw nya na
so stop
no help no cry no whatever
ayaw ko na sayo, tapon na kita..
is that how it should be?
8:30pmMargot
don't expect her to love you if she doesn't
8:31pmMargot
i know nakakagalit isipin
pero ganun talaga eh
i've learned from past relationships
that no matter how long nagsama kayo
it could always end up to nothing

Margot
don't expect her to love you if she doesn't
8:31pmMargot
i know nakakagalit isipin
pero ganun talaga eh
i've learned from past relationships
that no matter how long nagsama kayo
it could always end up to nothing
8:34pmCedrix
so its fine to let go because Im not that important?
why do I always tell myself that im important to her
8:34pmMargot
you're confusing yourself with the meaning of value
8:35pmCedrix
NO, because if Im really valuable to her as her to me...
she should been able to understand how I feel
8:36pmMargot
she does. but then again, she doesn't love you
8:36pmCedrix
about this whole "ayaw sakin ng family mo" at "mahal ko yung isa" crap thing
8:37pmMargot
she already knows she will be miserable
choosing you
Cedrix
Ganun ba ako kasamang tao?
well....its not something that I can ask you
8:40pmMargot
it's not about what you have done
or what you have not done
it's about asking herself
if she will make you happy and if she can be happy being with you
Cedrix
ngayong bang lubog ako financially at emotionally dahil sa mga ginawa nya, hindi na ba xa magiging maligaya?
8:42pmMargot
ced...
you know how love works
8:42pmCedrix
dahil ba hindi nya ginawa ang part nya?na ganito ako ngaun, dahil na din sa lintek na obstacles like yung isa and yung family nya
fuck her
8:42pmMargot
kahit ikaw
d mo kayang magmahal ng taong d mo mahal
Cedrix
so love fades away?
8:43pmMargot
you really think she loves you?
8:43pmCedrix
anu yung naramdaman nya nung una?init ng katawan?she felt like a princess because all my attention is her's to toy
are feelings can be toyed?
God, I let her see through me and all I get is this?
ganun ba talaga xa kawalang kwenta?
So, Wednesday morning, if it turns out like this, then we're settled, no turning back.
8:45pmMargot
bakit ganyan ka na. after everything that i have told you. matagal ko nang sinabi sa iyo, you are there for her convinience. sabi mo noo, ok lang basta magkasama kayo. now you talk like i never warned you or i never told you.
8:52pmMargot
i know you are hurting...
but that is the truth
after everything you have done
you end up in the losing end
Margot
get mad at the world if you want
but nothing will change her mind
in your favor
no matter how much you love a person
you have to know when to let go
you don't have to move on if you can't
but definitely you have to accept the truth or you will be living a lie
Cedrix
accept the truth...much better, less drama
9:28pmMargot
well, i can't blame you
you buried yourself in your own truth
9:31pmMargot
so, can you really?
9:31pmCedrix
yep
I want it all
all or nothing at all...
9:31pmMargot
dangerously selfish of you
9:32pmCedrix
but look at the bright side...she can get rid of me completely..
Im not selfish...Im staking what should have happened in the first place
how can you call me selfish?
you think giving her timeout to collect her thoughts will help?
9:32pmMargot
I want it all
all or nothing at all...
9:32pmCedrix
damn her, I already gave her 10 months
9:33pmMargot
if i were as wreckless as you
i'll be in ruins now
Margot
i want you to know that since you chose to work it out with her
despite my recommendation
don't blame her
don't blame yourself
don't blame anybody
you were lying to yourself to say that she loved you in the first place
Cedrix
She said so..
9:40pmMargot
hahaha. sabi din ni louie he loves me
so while i dwelled in the idea
i know part of it is a lie
it is just for me to feel better about everything, my own day dream
but at least i can face reality
Cedrix
and its my fault to believe her
9:43pmMargot
so what is your excuse
now
after the truth fell flat on your face?
Margot
are you just acting this way because
things did not go your way?
Cedrix
yep
im hurt
things didnt turned out like what we planned
and now, because sasabihin nya sakin na natatakot xa sakin, magulo ako magisip at makulit ako, she's ditching me out
I was able to get a bargain but whay does she have to make it difficult
bahay, ipon, job stability?
come on
9:52pmMargot
as she has confirmed to you
she doesn't want to marry you
if she loves you kahit adik ka
ok lang
Cedrix
at first she was afraid that her family would know..
ngayong alam na sa bahay nila thanks to me...wala na akong kwenta sa kanya
yep
now I believe that even though Im the worst person, she should love me still if she really love me
so its ditch out time
take me or leave me
Cedrix
IF she decides to leave me, then she should have a strong reason to do so..
9:54pmMargot
naniningil ka eh
9:55pmCedrix
pero di na ako maghahabol
naniningil?
9:55pmMargot
why ask for reasons
when the bottom line is
ayaw niya sau
she was being gracious about it sa iyo
each time nagcocompromise kayo noon
much to my surprise
well i am about to leave soon
i've copy pasted everything btw
you may want to see how you answered
nothing i will be publishing btw
without your consent.
kinomplie ko lang
if you are able to read it
i hope you see what is wrong with the picture
8:36pmCedrix
about this whole "ayaw sakin ng family mo" at "mahal ko yung isa" crap thing
8:37pmMargot
she already knows she will be miserable
choosing you
8:39pmCedrix
Ganun ba ako kasamang tao?
well....its not something that I can ask you
8:40pmMargot
it's not about what you have done
or what you have not done
it's about asking herself
if she will make you happy and if she can be happy being with you
8:42pmCedrix
ngayong bang lubog ako financially at emotionally dahil sa mga ginawa nya, hindi na ba xa magiging maligaya?
8:42pmMargot
ced...
you know how love works
8:42pmCedrix
dahil ba hindi nya ginawa ang part nya?na ganito ako ngaun, dahil na din sa lintek na obstacles like yung isa and yung family nya
fuck her
8:42pmMargot
kahit ikaw
d mo kayang magmahal ng taong d mo mahal
8:43pmCedrix
so love fades away?
8:43pmMargot
you really think she loves you?
8:43pmCedrix
anu yung naramdaman nya nung una?init ng katawan?she felt like a princess because all my attention is her's to toy
are feelings can be toyed?
God, I let her see through me and all I get is this?
ganun ba talaga xa kawalang kwenta?
So, Wednesday morning, if it turns out like this, then we're settled, no turning back.
8:45pmMargot
bakit ganyan ka na. after everything that i have told you. matagal ko nang sinabi sa iyo, you are there for her convinience. sabi mo noo, ok lang basta magkasama kayo. now you talk like i never warned you or i never told you.
8:52pmMargot
i know you are hurting...
but that is the truth
after everything you have done
you end up in the losing end
9:01pmMargot
get mad at the world if you want
but nothing will change her mind
in your favor
no matter how much you love a person
you have to know when to let go
you don't have to move on if you can't
but definitely you have to accept the truth or you will be living a lie
9:27pmCedrix
accept the truth...much better, less drama
9:28pmMargot
well, i can't blame you
you buried yourself in your own truth
9:31pmMargot
so, can you really?
9:31pmCedrix
yep
I want it all
all or nothing at all...
9:31pmMargot
dangerously selfish of you
9:32pmCedrix
but look at the bright side...she can get rid of me completely..
Im not selfish...Im staking what should have happened in the first place
how can you call me selfish?
you think giving her timeout to collect her thoughts will help?
9:32pmMargot
I want it all

all or nothing at all...
9:32pmCedrix
damn her, I already gave her 10 months
9:33pmMargot
if i were as wreckless as you
i'll be in ruins now
9:36pmMargot
i want you to know that since you chose to work it out with her
despite my recommendation
don't blame her
don't blame yourself
don't blame anybody
you were lying to yourself to say that she loved you in the first place
9:39pmCedrix
She said so..
9:40pmMargot
hahaha. sabi din ni louie he loves me
so while i dwelled in the idea
i know part of it is a lie
it is just for me to feel better about everything, my own day dream
but at least i can face reality
9:42pmCedrix
and its my fault to believe her
9:43pmMargot
so what is your excuse
now
after the truth fell flat on your face?
9:45pmMargot
are you just acting this way because
things did not go your way?
9:51pmCedrix
yep
im hurt
things didnt turned out like what we planned
and now, because sasabihin nya sakin na natatakot xa sakin, magulo ako magisip at makulit ako, she's ditching me out
I was able to get a bargain but whay does she have to make it difficult
bahay, ipon, job stability?
come on
9:52pmMargot
as she has confirmed to you
she doesn't want to marry you
if she loves you kahit adik ka
ok lang
9:52pmCedrix
at first she was afraid that her family would know..
ngayong alam na sa bahay nila thanks to me...wala na akong kwenta sa kanya
yep
now I believe that even though Im the worst person, she should love me still if she really love me
so its ditch out time
take me or leave me
9:54pmCedrix
IF she decides to leave me, then she should have a strong reason to do so..
9:54pmMargot
naniningil ka eh
9:55pmCedrix
pero di na ako maghahabol
naniningil?
9:55pmMargot
why ask for reasons
when the bottom line is
ayaw niya sau
she was being gracious about it sa iyo
each time nagcocompromise kayo noon
much to my surprise
well i am about to leave soon
i've copy pasted everything btw
you may want to see how you answered
nothing i will be publishing btw
without your consent.
kinomplie ko lang
if you are able to read it
i hope you see what is wrong with the picture
9:59pmMargot
you have 5 mins
10:02pmCedrix
publish it and tag it please
10:02pmMargot
aw. okay. i'll publish the raw via blog.
10:02pmCedrix
maybe what's wrong with the picture is that she doesn't know what to do with me and she wants to ditch me now
10:02pmMargot
if you must comment just go ahead
i'll be checking it in the morning.
maybe
but she doesn't want to be married
if that will sound better to you for now
10:03pmCedrix
we both agreed with that
if she doesn't want to, fine with me
but she's making it hard for me not to see them both
as if parang wala lang